Looking Back At Depression
This is not easy to write
When I thought of writing my story here, I had in mind a chronological account. It was going to be, this happened and then I did this etc. Unfortunately, one thing I didn’t do back then was keep a diary, (or a blog).
Around 18 months after the event, my memory of that time seems very hazy. I know that at the time, one thing seemed to lead me to another and I found the information and tools that would help me as I went along.
Lost in the mists
Now, there are things that have become essential parts of my life and even my daily routine. But looking back, I can barely remember how I came across them. For a lot of the time, I felt slightly numb and not quite in touch with things back then.
That feeling seems to extend to my recollection of the period. Maybe it is my unconscious minds way of telling me that it is all in the past anyway and that there is no point dwelling on the details.
Signposts
The important thing is that if somebody can relate to how I was feeling then, because they are down there too, I can point them towards the things that helped me to break out of it. There were also things I tried that didn’t work for me but may be useful for others.
I will also talk about the things that happened that appeared to be the cause of my feelings but that I now realize were only a trigger. Whatever happens to us, we have a choice about how we react to it. I had one major ‘aha’ moment when that became absolutely clear to me.
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